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yeah so it finally snowed here in maine after a month of two of bi-polar weather and end of summer heat. it was crazy. but it finally seems like winter, eventhough it nots. i just hope that it will stay for christmas. i really want snow on christmas. and a laptop. mostly a laptop. but snows good too. i have so much to say, well type, in so little time. and my fingers are absolutely freezing so its hard for me to type right now. to start it off, as usuall, ill talk about a guy. then go to talk about my disaster of a day. okay so there was this guy names anthony that lives pretty much down the road and he goes on my bus and hes SUPER cute. hes soo tall and his hair is perfect, and his acne cleared up from last year so hes even more attractive! but ive had the tiniest crush on him for a while and it kind of got bigger in the beginning of this school year but the thing is as usual he doesnt know i exist. well i mean he knows i wxist and he probably knows my name cuz ive went on the same bus as his for... well forever because he doesnt drive yet and hes a junior but anyways ive seen him around school a lot and i started to like him more and more and then, the other day as i was walking to my sixth block study hall on the third floor in mrs.bell's room, he was walking down the stairs with this skinny little annoying asian girl named emily. i hate her so much. yeah yeah i know 'hate is such a strong word' well i dont give a flying rats ass what you say. shes just a bich. plain and simple. well anyways, he was walking. with emily. laughing. and smiling. and tALKING. AND HAVING A GOOD TIME. and i got so angry. its like i set myself up to be let down or something. i just dont understand. im just glad i got let down earlier in the beginning of my growing love for him. because if i hadn't, and it turned out to be another "christ poulin" case, it wouldve been horrific. i don't think i can go through another one of those! so im getting over him. and trying to avoid him and not see him as much, but its kind of hard to do when you have to stadn at the same bus stop as him and ride on the same bus. but it'll happen eventually, right now im finally focusing on trying to make myself happy. i want to actually be happy this holliday i mean i deserve it right? everyone does? but i dont tihnk i ever have been. or at least not in the past recent years. and now the other usual topic, my horrible, humiliating, disasterous day. so it all started with out big snow storm. and our street usually doesn't get plowed when it snows, not for a few days or until the very end of the day.so we had a two hour delay for school, and i was soo happy i got to sleep in an extra two hours because i didn't sleep well like i usualy don't. and so when i got up i was taking my time and having a good morning and ifigured that since the roads were kindof bad and considering that our bus driver is normally late on regular days, that he would be even later today. but that wasn't the case apparently. because as i was going out to the b us stop, he was already there and i had to run, but the road was covered with ice and snow and i slipped and fell. it was SO HUMILIATING. i honestly almost started crying. and he was just sitting there smuggly in his warm dry drviers seat laughing his head off while i was there lying in the freezing snow wet and cold on the verge of crying. so i told my sister to go get onto the bus and i walked back home limping and tears welling up in my eyes. my mom came outside and started yelling at me because i 'missed the bus'. just forget about the fact that id just fallen. because you know im not hurt or anything after just almost smacking my head off of the tar. whatever. and she got all mad at me because i told her i wasn't going to school in freezing wet clothes and because id just scaped my knee and elbow. and then she was giving me crap for having to drive through this crap. but it's not really my fault im uncoordinated and the roads were civered with ice. but she never even asked me if i was okay until i got home from school. and the answer i gave her was yes, but really im not. im not at all. im so embarrassed and my butt hurts and so does my knee. but if id told her that she would've started with the classinc, 'you shoes don't have any traction blah blah blah nag nag nag its all your fault blee blahh bkughsebiuye' bull. it's always my fault. but what can i say? they obviously expect perfection and thats something im not even close to. im still a little upset though. but gling to school and talking to my friends about it made my day. they all make everything so funny. instead of eating at lunch, we spend our time telling these hilarious stories about our weekends or anything really and laughing our butts off. i love it. and im also happy that today was shprtened because after what had happened this morning, i was ready to go home as soon as i got to school. anyways, HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!! thanks for reading and have a GREAT christmas and new year!!!!

well there's a few new and kind of exciting things going on in my life. to start off, theres the drama in school. it doesnt involve me this time, (finally) but it involves pretty much everyone else. so i guess pretty much 4/5 of the people in the school do drugs, have sex, smoke, and drink, and i dont to technically i could be classified as i prude to some people i guess. but im not disappointing my parents to idgaf. but some of the people that do all that crap have been doing it in the school bathrooms. and i guess they, having no apparent common sense, thought they could continue on doing that for the rest of their highschool career and never get caught. and just to out this out there, it makes me really angry that people do that. i mean i do care if they do drugs but its none of my business and i cant do anything about it but in the school bathroom?? really?! have a little effing respect kay? its a school!! but anyways, it was really making me mad, and i didnt do anything or tell anyone, but THEY FINALLY GOT CAUGHT!!! JUSTICE HAS BEEN SERVED!!!!!!!! they were suspended for like 5 day and i think it shouldve been more and its probably not going to change anything, but whatever, they got caught and thats all i care about. one kid got suspended for 10 days cause it was his second offence and i tihnk that everyone shouldve been suspended for that long but i have no controll over what the school does. and im even suprised that the principle did anything about it because honestly, i dont even think they care about naything that goes on in the school. i mean you should see what everyone wears! its like living in a strip club or something! i really just wanna move cause everyones mean and the guys are all dinks and it just sucks living here and i dont want to anymore. a lot of people dont. but its mostly the wh0res that have no one left to do because theyve dont the whole school. and people tell me, "why do you spend you're time just waiting for the right guy? you're young why dont you have fun??!!" well one, because im not like that. i have these things called dignity and self respect that none of them have. two, al the guys in my school dont like me anyways. and three because id rather not do that and get a STD that all the cheerleaders spread around. and no im not stereotyping chreerleaders, but in our school all of the wh0res are the cheerleaders. and lemme tell ya, theres a LOT.
another thing, so i just got back home from a two night sleepover at my friends kayleigh's house. the first night we walked all over town looking for something to do and i got a job application. and the this morning we had to baby sit her step-cousin-in-laws and oh my gosh they were a handful but at least i got experience and then a few hours ago after we got back to her moms house from babysitting, we went out to eat at this place in town called alfredos and we were talking about guy like we always do and we were getting really depressed because we cant get boyfriends and the guys we like will never even know that we exist. but i tihnk that because she introdiced me to the Janoskians, im starting to get over chris because i have something other than him to think about. and we came up with some key ideas as to why i shouldnt like him. for example, hes a bad person, hes nice but no the kind of nice boyfriend that im looking for because all he wants is to me girsl, he does drugs, and hes one of the popular football player buttholes. so yeah now that i tihnk about it, its really not a good idea for me to be obsessing over someone who is like that. but now there's another problme. im like in love with jai brooks. like IN LOVE. not as much as kayleigh loves luke, but pretty much. and the sad thing is, hes in freaking australia and im in maine so this sucks just,... a lot. and im going to write him a letter and me and kayleigh bought them bracelerts to give them because they wear those and if i see either of them wearing out bracelets in one of their videos or something, im going tocrpa my pants, have a seisure, and die.
and one last VERY important thing, ARE JUSTIN AND SELENA REALLY TRULEY ACTUALLY SONE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! because ive been hearing rumors about that and ive read some things that look pretty freakin true but i cant tell or not!!! so if someone would be kind enough to tell if if its true i would very much appreciate it!!! and now im starting to really lose hope because liam and danielle broke up and if jelenas over then that only leaves one more couple to keep love alive!!! louis and eleanore!!! idk if thats how to spell her name but if they break up, thats the third stike and love is gone. there will be NO hope in love for the whole world. kay? thats just the way it is.
well i dont want to keep my parents up with my loud typing so im going to go now plus its creeping as eff in my basement so please if you could give me a true answer as to if jelenas done i would love it!!!! thanks bye!!!! <3
 

p.s. sorry for all the typos i just suck! bye now!

hola amigas! yeah so im not in the best mood right now. cause im home and my parents are at a halloween party and there's nothing for dinner and i was going to hang out with my freind tyler but my parents said no. so im pretty much boared out of my mind. and im mad because my friend is having a sleepover with a girl i dont trust at all. i mean shes nice and all but i dont really trust her. and i feel like im starting to drift away from my best friend a little more each day... and i dont know why... but we haven't hungout for a while. we're planning to on halloween though because it's suppose to rain all night so we don't want to go trick-or-treating if it's suppose to be stormy. and i don't know if shes going to hold on to her word ause she always seems to have somthing to do eeverytime. anyways, im also not in a god mood because of something i found out about the people in my school a couple days ago. so this girl was talking to kayleigh and telling her about how her and a unch of people all went to someones house after a dance we had last year and all got high af. and it didnt uprise me that SHE did it but then i found out like 3/4 of the people in the whole school do it. and then the other day, this guy i kindof liked smoked in the goddam bathroom!! i mean what the eff!!! why would you do that?!?! i really dont care, well i do care about what they do but doing it in school!!?? they are PATHETIC. and i want to do something about it but i dont want to be a tatletale brat. i lost so much respect for a LOT of people. and it kind of scares me. i mean i feel really uncomfortable being at school now around people that are high. and i know they are too because you can SMELL it everywhere. nd that's not even an exaggeration. or however you spell it. and i found out chris does it too. you know. the guy i have a HUGE crush on? yeah. that made me SO disappointed. and how the heck do they even get the drugs anyways?! i mean they're 15 you can't just go out somewhere and be like "yo homie i want some dope." NO YOU CANT DO THAT. and why would you anyway?!?! its effing dumb!!! but whatever. thy can ruin their lives. its not up to me what they do. but im going to go scrounge up some foor for dinner. bye.

yeah so im just kind of depressed right now i guess. i think its just because im watching a show and its all about aving a boyfriend and they do all these dumb loveydovey crap and it makes me feel like im going to be ablone for like ever. i feel really lonely. it sucks. a lot. i especially hate how i see all these pictures with these adorable couples. oh and then there's the SONGS about love. those really kill me. and wat really gets me is that 1. my crush doesn't know or care that i exist 2. i hate o walk around school and see him all the time 3. im too affraid to tell him and 4. i have to watch people kissing and hugging and eating eachothers faces off while i dont have anyone that even carees im walking on this earth. now THATS is what sucks the most. i just wish someone cared. well someone that i care about too. it bothers me a lot. then other people are always like, "you're only a sophmore in highschool! its not like you're going to find the love of your life now! just wait" and they're the poeple with boyfriends. but thats easy for them to say! they're not alone! they have someone who cares for them and loves them! and i KNOW im not goin to find the love of my life! but it wuld be ncie to have someone! like to hangout with, and hold hands with, and be with on holidays, especially valentines day!!!thats the suckiest holiday ever well if you're single that is. but i'm always single on valentines day! and i never have a date for any dances! and that leads on to another thing, the snowfall ball. i really want to go, but my best friend isnt going, and the only way id go then is if i had someone who'd ask me. but is that going to hppen? noooooooooope. well i mean there's a chance but its like 1/1000000000000000000000000000000000000 soo nothings really gonna happen. and today, my crush didnt even look at me. and i saw him like a billion times today. so i feel prett ignored. but me and this other cute guy made eye contact a couple times but we always do and hes a douche so im not that inot him. that whats different about chris. hes nice, and not abnoxious (or however you spell it) and hes really cute and hes ust perfect. but i think i've been over this before. i really hate though that i always day dream about what we could have and everything and i KNOW it won't even happen so it makes me sad. but whatever. i'll get over it like NEVER. ugh im waiting for my friend to answer me on facebook because we were going to skype when she got to her dads but she wont talk to me and my phones dead so i cant text her. well im going to make some food and then go to bed so adios!!

sooooooo last week was absolutely HORRIBLE. but its kind of hard to explain why though. ill just start with i was in a bad mood all week, girls you know why haha, and i felt like crap, and people were just insanely annoying. plus all of a sudden schools really starting to stress me out. but now that fieldhockey's over i can have more time to do my homework and keep my grades up. because currently..... im not doing so good.... and im getting in trouble hahah but anyways. i really have no guy news. besides how excited i was to see my crush today and that i got to walk really REALLY close to him in the hall... that was pretty cool. it would be cooler if we would talk or something but you know being the shy loser i am im never going to have the courage to say anything to him anyways. uhmm and another thing thats kind of cool i guees is that in science we were working on a rpoject and we had to do posters so i took it home to work on it, and i drew some animals annndddd they turned out really good..... yeah.... thats my life.
OHMYGOSH
i just remembered something else that happened today that made me like poop myself!!!! so i have health class before chris and i didnt know everyone in their class wasnt out of the room yet, so i walked in, and him and his friend and me were the onyl ones in thre and then his friend walked out so it was only me and him and it was awkward and amazing and we made eye contact!!
its obvious NOTHINGS going to happen because, i think, if he wanted to say something he would. but my friends think that, like me, hes too scared to tell me he likes me or talk to me and thats copletely CRAZY because like i said before im .......emilie.......... and hes, CHRIS! and its just wouldnt make sense. its not like im that pretty and imtimidating anyway haha so he shouldnt be scared to talk to me at all really. ..
but im kind of mad... because my friend said she might be going somewhere far away for winter break, so we we wont be abke to hang out at all and shes going to be there over new years so i wont be able to be with her for that either, i mean i know that we're not going to b able to be together every year but idk what im going to do because th other friends i have i dont really hangout with because we're not close and its just awkward i mean in school its one thing but sleepovers are different. soo idk ill probably just be stayin alone for the whole time and being ored. hopefully ti will sno a butt load so then i can go snow boarding and maybe stay at a hotel at the montain but i dont know hat my parents have planned. hopefully i wont have to go stay at my grandmas because i hate staying there. its so boring because they're old. i love them and love seening them and all but they're just so boring i just dont like STAYING with them. UUUUUUGHHHHHHHHH i just wish i had a bofriend or something so then i would have someone to spend time with. i mean i like being single, at the same time i dont and i want to date my crush, but i just need more friends i guess. and this is the donside of not being popular and haing a lot of friends and parties to go to and all that. idk. im just upset i guess. and im a little upset because me, her and my other friend lexy were planning on volunteering at a haunted haride thing sometime this weekend and she miht not be able to do that either. but i probably still going to because i really need the community service hours. well thats my FUN life, thank you if you took the time to read about it<3 but i have to go now because im tired and have nothing to do so im going to go to bed. goodnight!
 
(p.s. sorry for all of the typos this keyboard sucks a little bit.)

oh.my.gosh. i haven't made a set in like FOREVER! there are sooo many things that have happened like i don't even know where to start!! well let me start out with how schools going so ar and go from there.
 
Okay so, my birthday was last week on friday and it was also homecomming the same day. no one had asked me and my cush already had someone to go with (that story will come later) so i went with my best friend kayleigh. we went to the football game firsst though but it was rainy and cold so we went into the school so get dried off and find a place to put our stuff and everything, and all the other bathrooms had a bunch of people in them so we both went into the teachers bathroom. and then there were a bunch of people that came in that were all around the tachers bathroom and we didn't want to BOTH come out cuz you know that'd be kinda weird because of the people that were outside. so we stayed in there for ANOTHER half a hour but when we finally came out it was all good cuz there was no one in the hall way and we were so happy! hahaha but then at the homecomming dance i crush was there and he wasn't dancing with anyone so my friend kayleigh went up to him and asked him if he could dance with me because it was my birthday and so (he's the hottest guy in the whole school and im really shy so i was really scared) she dragged me over there and then his date (who im just going to tell you about now) shes a bich. just to put it bluntly. but shes a liar and she kept telling kayleigh that HE (my crush) asked HER (my crushsd date) to go to homecomming with him but SHE asked HIM and i know that because one of the other friend marisa whos a junior who is friends with my crush asked him about it and told me the whole story and yeah. i was pssed. anyways, so kayleigh dragged my over to him (literally dragged me) and him date came over and tried to dance with him the second before i got there because he knew what was going on and he like pushed her away a little bit and kayeigh pushed me in front on him and we dance and i legit COULD NOT believe tha it happened i still can't but that was definately THE BBEST THING THAT HAD EVER HAPPENED TO ME IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!! and i was the best birthday ever. but while we were dancing i didnt hear him say anything because the usic was so looud, but i has a fieldhockey game the next day and marisa plays fieldhockey too and she didnt go to the dance so i told her everything that happened that night and the next day of our fieldhockey game she came on the bus and she told me that she was chris at walmart before she came here, and that they talked abuot me. and she asked why he didnt say anything to me and he told her that he said happy birthday to me but i just didnt hear it!! i felt stupid but i was so gald that he actually said something!!!!! and now kayleigh and marisa think that me and him have a thing now because marisa told me that whever she talks to him about me he gets all quiet and blushes. and its funny cuz i do the same thing. but they have so much hope that we're going to be together. personally i don't think its ever going to happen but i really would like it to. but this brings this to another thing about him, so we had a half day on thursay for like a teacher workshop thing idk but so we had a schedual change and he had the same lunch as me and at the lunch table me kayleigh and marisa sat at him and his friend sat at the one closest to us, and when i went over to the other side of the table to talk to marisa i was really close to him and his friend whispered something to him and they both looked over at me. and then when i was walking through the halls that same day, we looked at eachother and the way he looked at me made me literally go INSANE. his eyes and his hair and everything about him is sooo beautiful!!! and kayleigh keeps telling me that i should just ask him out but WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD I EMBARRAS MYSELF LIKE THAT?!?!? i mean hes CHRIS and im .....emilie..... and hes so OH MY GOSH and im all like uhm who are you? like one dance with a loser like me obviously wouldn't matter to him. i mean hes not a manhore or anything like that but it still wont change the fact that he doesnt care that i exist. marisa and kayleigh say he probably likes me because of the "signs" but i dont think so. idk. i just like him so much and uuughh im sick of being a lonely loser no one. i can love him SO much better than any of the other girls. ive had a cush on him since he moved here in 6th grade and i just wish i would be aknowledged... a least a little.... but whatever if it's going to happen it will happen if not then itt won't. i can't help my fate.
 
and then on another subject besides my sad social life, kayleigh and i went to the oxrun mall the other day and we got some REALLY cute shirts at theis store called charlotte russe which ive never shopped at before but i think i will now because its SOOO cute!! sadly thre were NO hot guys at the mall becaus it was a friday and we didnt have school and everyone else did (oh and we have a 4 day weekend that why there was no school) i am SO not looking forward to having to do all my homework sometime this weekend.. ugh.
 
well sorry thats a LOT to read but thatss pretty much the only exciting things that have happened that i can think about right now because i'm really tired and just had 2 sleepovers ina a row with kayleigh so i haven't gotten much sleep. hahah so im gonna go to bed now! thanks for reading if you had the time and care and for liking my set!!!! goodnight!

hes adorable!!

he is one beautiful man!!

i love him he's perfect and adorable!!!!!

yeahhh so this is the first time ive ever made a set like this and it took a looong time hahha but i love this color. and im kind of in one of those "i-feel-forever-alone-i-really-need-a-boyfriend" funks. i am a lot now and idk y. but there hasn't been many things that have happend. THERE IS ONE REALLY EXCITING THING THOUGH!!!!!!!! omgomgomg okay to tomorrow im FINALLY getting a hir cut and i CAN NOT WAIT!!!! its been soo long and my hair is all dead and it wont cooperate and ugh i cant handle it anymore! and then after that i'm going to the mall with kayleigh(: and i dont have as much money as her but we're going to try to look for sales and stuff so we dont have to pay a butt load of money for stuff and yeahhh its gonna be aweeesomeee!!!!!! and tomorrows suppose to be like 75-80 and ITS GONNA BE FLIPPIN AWESOME!!!! then there's this other thing. i guess a lot of things have happend hahaha but hmmm what to start with....
 
well, 1.) this kid athan and his dumb friend jack made fun of my friend kayleigh and so i got really really reeeeaaallly mad because they said really mean things and so i FREAKED OUT AT THEM! like im not even kidding i went full on rage. but jack still didnt say sorry and athans acting like nothing happend and im going to kill them. i hate them soooo effing much. no one and i mean NO ONE treats my friends like that!!!!! i hate when people think that they're sooooo much better than someone that never ever did naything to them. i mean really? crapping on someones life just because you think you're so speacial? and he was like rubbing it in her face that he goes to a pretty little private school (not hating on people that go to private schools but he was making it such a big deal) and stuff and yeha. i was freaking out.
 
anyways. 2.) kayleigh and i are marries and he have been for like two years now i tihnk?? hahaha its one of those friend marriges. its so funny. but so athan and jack have this really nice friend liam whos absolutley ADORABLE and so me and kayleigh call him out son and his name is liam and we skype him and stuff and omg hes so cute. but then there's this other guy and his name is luke and hes older than us by a little and he doesnt even know we exist but hes SOO FLIPPIN ADORABLE!!! I WANNA GO UP TO HIS AND SQUISH HIS FACE HES SO CUTE!!!!!!! and so we call him our son too. he doesnt know it yet though.
 
3.) and today was the last day of school and we saw squishy (luke) in the hall way and we are sooo tempted to tell him that we think hes adorable and we didnt though. but now we have to wait till next year but and we saw him in the hall way as i was saying and we yelled squishy! i dont tihnk he noticed or he was ignoring us or something but AHHHH HES SO CUTE AHHH!!!!!!!!
 
I really dont know what else to say im so hungry and hyper and tired and i really can not believe that schools over now. im a sophmore. that flippin crazaayy!!! it doesnt even feel like its over. ugh what is the world comming to. OHH I KNOW!! okay so we just had finals and the ones i took today were very difficult. so first i had the spanish final and it was SOOOO hard. i really dont think i did good on it. then i had my world studies final and she let us use the packet with all of the answers in it but it was 80 questions long and it took me the whole 2 hours to finish it! i had a mjor headache by then end.
 
sooo yeha i think thats all i have to sayyyy annndddd yeah! so bye(: