yeah so it finally snowed here in maine after a month of two of bi-polar weather and end of summer heat. it was crazy. but it finally seems like winter, eventhough it nots. i just hope that it will stay for christmas. i really want snow on christmas. and a laptop. mostly a laptop. but snows good too. i have so much to say, well type, in so little time. and my fingers are absolutely freezing so its hard for me to type right now. to start it off, as usuall, ill talk about a guy. then go to talk about my disaster of a day. okay so there was this guy names anthony that lives pretty much down the road and he goes on my bus and hes SUPER cute. hes soo tall and his hair is perfect, and his acne cleared up from last year so hes even more attractive! but ive had the tiniest crush on him for a while and it kind of got bigger in the beginning of this school year but the thing is as usual he doesnt know i exist. well i mean he knows i wxist and he probably knows my name cuz ive went on the same bus as his for... well forever because he doesnt drive yet and hes a junior but anyways ive seen him around school a lot and i started to like him more and more and then, the other day as i was walking to my sixth block study hall on the third floor in mrs.bell's room, he was walking down the stairs with this skinny little annoying asian girl named emily. i hate her so much. yeah yeah i know 'hate is such a strong word' well i dont give a flying rats ass what you say. shes just a bich. plain and simple. well anyways, he was walking. with emily. laughing. and smiling. and tALKING. AND HAVING A GOOD TIME. and i got so angry. its like i set myself up to be let down or something. i just dont understand. im just glad i got let down earlier in the beginning of my growing love for him. because if i hadn't, and it turned out to be another "christ poulin" case, it wouldve been horrific. i don't think i can go through another one of those! so im getting over him. and trying to avoid him and not see him as much, but its kind of hard to do when you have to stadn at the same bus stop as him and ride on the same bus. but it'll happen eventually, right now im finally focusing on trying to make myself happy. i want to actually be happy this holliday i mean i deserve it right? everyone does? but i dont tihnk i ever have been. or at least not in the past recent years. and now the other usual topic, my horrible, humiliating, disasterous day. so it all started with out big snow storm. and our street usually doesn't get plowed when it snows, not for a few days or until the very end of the day.so we had a two hour delay for school, and i was soo happy i got to sleep in an extra two hours because i didn't sleep well like i usualy don't. and so when i got up i was taking my time and having a good morning and ifigured that since the roads were kindof bad and considering that our bus driver is normally late on regular days, that he would be even later today. but that wasn't the case apparently. because as i was going out to the b us stop, he was already there and i had to run, but the road was covered with ice and snow and i slipped and fell. it was SO HUMILIATING. i honestly almost started crying. and he was just sitting there smuggly in his warm dry drviers seat laughing his head off while i was there lying in the freezing snow wet and cold on the verge of crying. so i told my sister to go get onto the bus and i walked back home limping and tears welling up in my eyes. my mom came outside and started yelling at me because i 'missed the bus'. just forget about the fact that id just fallen. because you know im not hurt or anything after just almost smacking my head off of the tar. whatever. and she got all mad at me because i told her i wasn't going to school in freezing wet clothes and because id just scaped my knee and elbow. and then she was giving me crap for having to drive through this crap. but it's not really my fault im uncoordinated and the roads were civered with ice. but she never even asked me if i was okay until i got home from school. and the answer i gave her was yes, but really im not. im not at all. im so embarrassed and my butt hurts and so does my knee. but if id told her that she would've started with the classinc, 'you shoes don't have any traction blah blah blah nag nag nag its all your fault blee blahh bkughsebiuye' bull. it's always my fault. but what can i say? they obviously expect perfection and thats something im not even close to. im still a little upset though. but gling to school and talking to my friends about it made my day. they all make everything so funny. instead of eating at lunch, we spend our time telling these hilarious stories about our weekends or anything really and laughing our butts off. i love it. and im also happy that today was shprtened because after what had happened this morning, i was ready to go home as soon as i got to school. anyways, HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!! thanks for reading and have a GREAT christmas and new year!!!!
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